Michigan

Searching for what is left of a vein

In front of me despite my eyes full of pain

A slave to the needle two battles taken on at once

First persistent pursuit intrigued in less than a month

Like my body you explored every detail every crevasse

Traveled to imagining a life full of kids and marriage without hesitation

Rollercoaster ride strapped to an anchor with one held hope.

Empty words but one promised love, that was the only life boat

Drifted and drowned from crack and heroin smoke

Broken destroyed invisible to most

Whiplashed insecurities, ego, grandiose under the drugs blanketed hypnatos

Blind by addictions selfishness

Obvious tension one mind floating into the abyss

Communication inability, gaslight, dismiss all sealed with a kiss

Quick to speak slow to listen paradox premise

Sharp tongue accusations “stupid, emotionally unintelligent, vindictive” attacks

Insecure distrustful projections from the infidelity past tracks