I’m Tired

Here’s my take on codependency from someone who is probably codependent

Maybe I am more at odds with the term.

Anyways, Carl Jung philosophy on human connection is vital to growth and essential to living. We are all linked, connection is a necessity for existence (and yes he discusses non dependent and individuation).

Someone who has been hyper independent their whole life of course when dating or in friendship will latch onto that person because of the deprivation.

(I mean ya of course. That makes sense)

That person becomes their whole world.

A secret to my personal experience or “codependency” is I am a 100% all in type of bitch.

I guess it’s not even codependency or desperation, most of my life I’ve been independent whether due to attachment or abandonment whatever (I’m not talking shit). Yes I am a very independent person.

And I am tired of being independent.

I just want someone to share my life with. 

Don’t we all?

Carl believes it to be the foundation of humanity.

I have reached this point

I’m tired of searching

I’m tired of dating

I’m tired of being hopeful in the dating realm

Quite frankly I’m tired of my own bullshit thinking the next guy who shows me interest will be it

I’m tired of being let down

I’m tired of being lonely

Sometimes I’m tired of being a therapist and being there for everyone else

I’m tired of losing friends

I’m tired of not having friends

I’m tired of being depressed

I’m tired of preaching to the choir but not listening

I’m tired of being sad because of my ex and exes that aren’t probably near as lonely or sad or even think about it.

I. am. tired.