Conversations unable to have had. Pt 1

I would like it if we both go and have a good time.

This feels like a set up, if I don’t have a good time then I’m causing a problem when this is not about your or I. The truth is how would I have a good time? No that would not be my authentic self acting like everything is okay. The most consistent thing true about me is I wear my emotions on my sleeve. Us both being at a mutual group event after you dumped me with no emotion, which felt like you threw me away like garbage, no follow up conversation despite an intertwined circle is what I have perceived as a complete lack of care. Ice cold.

Come to an agreement of splitting time but you don’t leave at the committed time which feels like a slap in the face, you do not respect me. You don’t care.

We were friends before this. I am not saying I want to be friends if anything I don’t, you don’t treat friends like this let alone someone you dated.

I guess the perceived lack of care is shocking.

Maybe it’s punishment with my boundary of not being friends with exes, well played, checkmate to me.

I don’t think I’m upset about being dumped ya it hurts and sucks,

I am upset with the lack of empathy or care and not in a take care of me kind of way.

Like, wish it could have worked out and it sucks it didn’t. Thank you for everything I really had a fun and good time with you. I truly wish you the best kind of way

I’m told not to have expectations because then I’ll always be let down, yet this seems like bare minimum human decency.

But I guess we will never know.

Some things are better left unsaid and yet nothing haunts us like the things we don’t say.