And I miss you on a train, I miss you in the morning.
I wonder if you miss me like I have been missing you. If you have driven by my house or we have driven past one another.
We said we would never ghost one another yet that's exactly what you did.
I hope its been as torturous as it has been for me. I hope you haven't been able to get me off your mind.
Was it all a lie? Or are you running? Running to San Fransico? Staying busy? Back out there? Run run run.
Maybe I'm crazy to have held onto hope that you would come around. It has been truly heartbreaking and sad. I felt I saw the inner battle, conflict, and incongruence of what you were feeling and what you were saying that last day. Maybe I'm wrong..... I have to let go of that hope. And maybe texting you is too much or crazy and that's okay. I am okay with that. I have always stayed true to myself and honest. This will be the last time I reach out to you. I hope your upcoming business trip goes well. And your hike for Half Dome with friends is safe.
It's really over. You aren't coming back and I need to move on? If you are going to hurt me why don't you hurt me a little more? Dig a little deeper. Push a little harder than before.
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